Shld i? Shldn't i???

tis is bad..... i am realli fallin 4 serene already.... i am already doing things 4 her tt i didn't do 4 others b4.... bcos of her, i am trying 2 become more assertive, because of her i started 2 sing in front of public, becoz of her i am tryin 2 learn new songs, bcause of her i am singing song at a bus stop! tis is bad.... i could b realli b falling hard 4 her... die already... i do not wan my friendship 2 end becoz of tis.... mayb she was rite.... i might have fallen 4 her a long time ago, but i didnt noe tt, or tt i hav might jus fallen 4 her now..... nowadays, if i still c her wit other guys, i will also b sianz..... realli dunno i hav tis feelin also...... igive her alot of extra attention also...... cannot believe it... haix..... some1 tell mi wad 2 do??? realli at a losss rite now... i hate the year of 2005.... it is realli a year of broken relationships 4 mi...... hiax.... i dunno how she feel bout mi.... even though i noe tt she noe, but whenever we go out, there is a sense of weirdness bewteen us... also dunno how 2 describe also....i care 4 her, but dun dare 2 b close 2 her 2.... even now, i tink its easier 2 tok over the phone.... theres no physical contact animore 2.... i realli miss tt... haix... some1 pls help mi out of tis 2pid situation...... i wan 2 tell her 2... but all of my frienz sae tt it is 2 fast and it will only scare her away..... so wad 2 do???? tis is also the 1st time i realli wan 2 make such a bold and hasty move.... haix.... so stress now.... btw, i kept my promise rite??? i did not look at u at all durin yr presentation.... =)